Nebil Elias

As I enter this room
I hear whispers whenever I move
I kept following the sound
But there is no one around
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Alone in this dark room, I belong
All I can do is sing a sad song
I'm all broken wish if I died
I don't know how I'm still alive
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Laying in my bed
Just lost in my head
Staring at these walls
My demons creep and crawl
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3 AM
Drained
Thoughts of countless years
Running and beginning to find an explanation in despair
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Depression and anxiety have settled in
I'm in a battle that I can't win
I can feel the pain through my skin
I'm on the edge of something breaking
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Alone in my room hearing voices all around
Echoes from the past that have me curled in the ground
Scratches on the wall and prints from bloody fist
Wanting to obliterate my entire being into a mist
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I am a prisoner in my head
Stuck in a tiny, jail-like cell
My heart is hopeless, full of dread
I'm like a hostage being held in hell
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Abandoned and in despair
Too fragile to repair

Chained with cuffs and strings of remorse
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A hectic day

I wonder if it will continue this way
Where I have to stop myself and doubt it every day
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Have you ever felt lost in the dark?
Like your whole world had been ripped apart?
You aimlessly wander around, yearning for the light.
But it's nowhere within your eyes sight.
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Faking a soul from which is lost
The years of abuse have taken it as cost
Days I feel hollow and barely real
No sign of happiness in which to feel
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Welcome to the haunting
A world filled with lies and fears
Fazed hearts and broken dreams
Feeling of terror in myself, like it's a part of me
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Sitting alone in this room
Having only a glimpse of the silent moon
I lay awake, thinking
Watching the stars in the city, blinking
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An empty room
Falling in gloom
I lay on a cold floor
I can't find the door
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A cold rainy night
I lay in my bed holding my sheets so tight
Trying to sleep and escape reality
And enter my world that's full of fancies
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Another night, all trapped in my head
Under the covers, wide awake in my bed
My mind is racing, I just want to sleep
But I can't, my thoughts are running so deep
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Why do I write?
Why do I speak?
Why do I fight?
Why do I freak?
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Surrounded by family and friends
In a home, I always feel by myself
At night, my mind soaks thoughts unsaid
Surrounded by hope, filled with dread
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Today the world went away
I'm not sure where it's gone
It left with no final say
It left many things undone
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It's strange how quick your so-called friends can turn into enemies
How your trust can be misplaced from bitter jealousy
They come and they go
Leaving indelible marks deep upon your soul
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