#244 I Finally See Myself Poem by Ezra Lawhn

I wanted to be gifted
But even if the stars shifted
I wouldn't even be a contender
Feels like I'm more of a pretender

He was smart, but never used it
He was given the world but abused it
I never got the chance
To advance

I failed at every step
I felt like a loser, yep
Still, I strived
Even the universe seemed contrived

I won by some miracle in the end
Earning the right to blend
The right to try
To be more than that shy-

Inept strange kid
The one that I had hid
But heavy fire burns itself out
As I found later with no doubt

I reached for the stars
Should have set lower bars
Got stuck on the moon
Singing the same tune

I won, but at what cost
Now dejected, 'lazy', lost
It's the things that people don't say
Before and after the fray