Khairul Ahsan

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A Capricious Soliloquy - Poem by Khairul Ahsan

I have some inherent problems with love,
Contrary to the most natural human feeling,
I seem to be quite fine and okay, up and doing,
When love that I seek doesn't surface in my viewing.

Unloved, I can soar in the sky and fly like a bird,
I can sing, I can grin, I can write, I can imagine.
Flow from the mountains like a natural stream,
And sleep peacefully, can even catch a dream.

But my problem starts when someone loves me.
My voice chokes, pen dries, imaginations disappear.
As my wings feel heavy, I cannot fly or float on air.
Grounded, I walk like a winged penguin, that's so queer!

Love and me are not like hand in glove.
But like a remarried mother, and a forlorn child,
Who wonders at random, tricked and beguiled,
By the charms of missed opportunities, stray and wild.

Love blurs my vision, stops my rhythm, makes me deaf.
It stops the music within me, makes my voice quaver.
It suddenly turns a flowing natural stream into a glacier,
The Amazon inside me becomes a Rio Hamza, the slowest river!

And so I am happy without love.
Never give me a soft whisper, I may swerve.
Never give me an affectionate look, It may unnerve
Me and my psyche, as there is no love that I truly deserve.


Dhaka
26 June 2014
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Topic(s) of this poem: love


Poet's Notes about The Poem

Just some random thoughts. When a poet writes, he assumes characters that he sees around or reads about. Here is one just like that.

Comments about A Capricious Soliloquy by Khairul Ahsan

  • Khairul Ahsan (8/10/2014 10:37:00 PM)

    @Leah Ayliffe
    Thank you very much for reading my poem and sharing your thoughts. I am truly inspired by your comment.
    ' I'm dependent on being independent! ' - A nice thought!
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  • (7/26/2014 8:13:00 PM)

    Khairul, this is a wonderful poem, I can understand your feelings, when there is no love I am free to be myself, be independent, and soar in any direction I want to. Yet when love is part of my life, I am grounded, it clips my wings, I feel unable to depend on myself. Love takes my freedom of choice away, because I have to respect another and their wishes. Love in a way suffocates and makes one feel undeserving of it, because all these other thoughts come upon you, stifling creativity. A begrudging of sorts because love expects too much from you. (Report)Reply

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  • (7/24/2014 1:44:00 PM)

    Well it didn't save the long comment so I'll just say that regardless of one's personal opinion on love they should be able to see the beauty of this piece. Very nice Khairul :) (Report)Reply

    Khairul Ahsan(7/21/2019 12:06:00 PM)

    I am so much inspired to read this comment of yours, although so much late! Thank you much, dear poet.

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  • (7/24/2014 1:23:00 PM)

    oh so fascinating this piece, the words felt alive in my mind and the emotions were dancing in my heart, what else i say other how brilliant writer you are, bravo (Report)Reply

    Khairul Ahsan(7/21/2019 11:52:00 AM)

    Thank you for appreciating me and my poem so much!

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  • Vicki Acquah (7/19/2014 1:18:00 AM)

    I said before loosen up do not put your self down find me on Google (Report)Reply

    Khairul Ahsan(7/21/2019 11:50:00 AM)

    Thanks for reading my poem and leaving a comment behind.

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  • Khairul Ahsan (7/18/2014 1:31:00 PM)

    @Amitava Sur
    Thanks for reading my poem and seeing through it.
    You have delved deep into the poem. Thanks for sharing your thoughts and feelings. I am much obliged!
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  • Khairul Ahsan (7/18/2014 12:55:00 PM)

    @Ruma Chaudhuri
    Thanks for reading my poem and sharing your thoughts.
    I appreciate your thoughtful comment.
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  • Akhtar Jawad (7/10/2014 4:13:00 PM)

    You are a deserving candidate to have love from all corners of the world. You write nice poems. Your thoughts have universality. (Report)Reply

    Khairul Ahsan(7/16/2019 1:05:00 AM)

    Loved all that you have said, and that makes me humble too, in recognizing your generous appreciation. Thank you, Akhtar Jawad.

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  • Ruma Chaudhuri (7/7/2014 10:57:00 AM)

    Nice poem. When you are in love, you write poems through your body, mind and soul. But when you are not in love, you write poems through your pen. Ha ha ha. Enjoy both poems. (Report)Reply

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  • Khairul Ahsan (7/6/2014 4:00:00 AM)

    @Kirti Sharma,
    Thank you very much for reading my poem and leaving your appreciative comment there.
    I am honored, much obliged!
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  • Khairul Ahsan (7/6/2014 3:45:00 AM)

    @ Sandra Feldman,
    I am deeply touched by your high praise of my poem. Poetry connects minds and hearts. I am so pleased to feel connected through my poetry, to many talented poets of this site, yourself included.
    'Talent and noblesse oblige' is a wonderful expression you have used. I feel honored and obliged.
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  • Leah Ayliffe (7/3/2014 8:38:00 AM)

    Wow, this poem is fantastic! I thoroughly enjoyed it. I share similar sentiments my friend!
    Unloved, I can soar in the sky and fly like a bird,
    I can sing, I can grin, I can write, I can imagine.
    Flow from the mountains like a natural stream,
    And sleep peacefully, can even catch a dream.
    I like to say... I'm dependent on being independent!
    Great write!
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  • (6/29/2014 5:18:00 PM)

    The thoughts and feelings expressed in this wonderful poem, only poetry can convey.
    That shows that poetry is the most enlightening and deepest form of expression because it touches the mind and the heart at the same time.
    You Dear Poet, have achieved just this in this outstanding work.
    However, you do have to accept the love of your admirative readers, Talent and noblesse oblige.
    SF
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  • Geetha Jayakumar (6/28/2014 1:00:00 PM)

    Beautiful poem. This poem itself speaks a lot....I am not sure whether your poem is speaking or you are speaking through poems now....Loved reading each lines and ending in a beautiful way....
    Very true said...
    And so I am happy without love.
    Never give me a soft whisper, I may swerve.
    Never give me an affectionate look, It may unnerve
    Me and my psyche, as there is no love that I truly deserve.
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    Khairul Ahsan(8/10/2014 8:16:00 PM)

    Thanks Geetha, for taking time to read my poem and sharing your thoughts here. Your kind words are a true inspiration for me.

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  • Amitava Sur (6/27/2014 7:21:00 PM)

    A nice write up Khairul - being highly emotional. But I can feel how the river Falgu is flowing slowly inside avoiding everybody's vision or attention, underneath the dry and rough sandy bay.
    I can feel the grudge hidden in these lines........
    Never give me an affectionate look, It may unnerve
    Me and my psyche, as there is no love that I truly deserve ......
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  • (6/27/2014 5:04:00 PM)

    wondering how your thoughts can be so alive! !
    beautiful... :)
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Poem Submitted: Thursday, June 26, 2014

Poem Edited: Monday, August 11, 2014


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