~a Journey To Taste~ Poem by E Nigma

I awoke today in the eye of a tornado, I'm filled with dread
To face this day and leave my bed
A cyclone of voices, whispers songs filled with words
Melodies of dissonance prick my nerves

Harmony and peace is what I seek, but what seeks me
Is chaos filled with explosive verbs
In other words, I'm a restless soul
That's paid my debts, but's never told

I'm in the clear, a zero sum I long to hear
But what I hear, echoes fear, and so I move to face my day
It's dressed in a vast array of colors shifting
With my moods, misunderstood, depressed, confused

Each step is a journey just to take
I walked into a wall today
Because I thought a door was in my way
Embarrassments a flavor, I no longer have to taste

Jim said hi, I said hello
But who is Jim and what does he know?
The gate keepers wouldn't let me leave
But now I know how and soon I'll be free

But in the meantime my stomach growls
Like a mad man howling at the moon
It's full now, just like my belly
To make a meal required focus and left me trembling

So I resorted to toast with jelly
Not exactly what I wished for
But the wish stores long been closed
I suppose this memory is all I've ever known