A Lie Poem by pang david

Someday I wish I’ll be gone
Vanish in some way, as if I never exist
And forget every pieces of me
Maybe I’ll forget the reason of my existence

I’m tired of this life
Exhausted of saying anything
Tired of pretending and dreaming
Dreams that can Never happen.
A future builds behind a shadow.

I’m getting used of saying goodbye
Of telling myself with such a lie
I have lost my pride and nothing left with me
Coz every time I say those words
I am stabbing myself with a knife that can’t end my life.
And every time I say those words
You’re always looking for me from behind.
Always!

I told you I’m leaving and I’m tired
But you just smile to me and said nothing
And it felt like ease to hear nothing
Being clueless of everything, I grew up that way in you, Clueless
You never speak a word
Coz when you do, everything will fall into pieces.

All this year’s these is what I get
Is it a sin to see my life in someone else’s eye?
When you’re gone,
I know I can do better without you

Amidst this confusion inside me for years
I’m still here, behind you
I never leave;
I just sit down and rest for awhile
Coz I can’t walk with you in this world
You will always remain a fantasy to me
That’s the world that fits me.