A Little Too Painful Poem by Refiloe Mokoena

I'll keep you safe he said
He pretended he cared
Got me fooled and rooting for him
Bad could not be a word to describe him
He put his arms around me
I felt his warmth, it pleased me
How he cared put a smile on my face
A smile that quickly turned to hate
As he revealed the knife in his hand
He took control of my life with the other hand
I obeyed every command he gave
Because for my life I was too afraid
Lie on that bed he instructed
I did so as if I was invited
Ouch! Did he just shove that knife in me?
Oh no. It was all of him in me
Too scared to scream, scared he would hurt me
Wait. But he already did
And he wasn't apologetic about it
Huffing and puffing, he was on top of me
Too late to cry he was already inside of me
Forcing his tongue in my mouth
How could he groan so loud?
Groan of pleasure that disgusted me
I hate myself how could I let this be?
I'm so filthy, got his demons on me
Now, only my eyes cry for help and no one can save me.