Alone In The Night With My Thoughts Poem by Alaina B.

Memories I can't quite remember
Of family friends and babysitters
I've felt panic before, but now it's in my chest
Wrapping around my lungs and blocking my breath
I don't like being scared
But I can't sleep in the same room as my cousins
Or the panic constricts and restricts
I can't put into words why I'm shaking or crying
Or explain the listless collapse into the dirt
Full of feelings I don't know how to feel
I don't even know if it's real
In denial of the flashes
As fleeting as lightning as I sit here
And I'm fine because other people have it worse
And I know that it could be so much worse
But it could be so much better too
Why can't it just get better
Why can't I get better