Always Waiting Poem by Gemma Southworth

Shattered, broken, missing parts
Battered, splintered, this is my heart
Its over, its finished, we’re done, we’re through
Words I expected but didn’t want from you

Screaming, shouting, denying the truth
Loving, missing, never letting go of you
Denial and pain and sinking in the abyss
Wishing so hard for one final kiss

I meant every word that to you I have said
Now I just wish i kept it inside instead
For surely then I wouldn’t feel this numb
But I suppose one day, the pain must come

Crying, aching and longing for your arms
Stopping, starting denying doing harm
Needing, wanting, dying with every beat
Always, constantly forever incomplete

If you love somebody, then set them free
If they come back then it was meant to be
So why are you still walking, fast the wrong way
Come back to me please, I wish every day

Wishing is futile, for they rarely come true
If you have to wish for it, it wasn’t meant for you
I cant believe that, I refuse to consent
That means we had nothing from the moment we met

I love you so much why cant you see
That I’ve finally found the missing part of me
You make me whole and feel so right
You haunt my dreams every single night

I know it wouldn’t work and there was no choice
But I don’t want to listen to that sensible voice
Never to hold you, kiss you, never again feel safe
Never to touch you, your body or your face

Look into my eyes, what do you see
Look past the tears, look deep into me
Can you see the heartache and the emptiness there
Can you see the longing and wishes and prayers

That I said to the sky for whoever is above
To send me just one day where I could feel your love
Without any guilt regret or consequences after
Just to touch your skin, and hear your happy laughter

Wishes don’t come true at least not for me
So I want you to remember for eternity
I meant every word that I said and will say
And I will love you forever, for the rest of my days

Even If I have to wait for the life after this
To hold you again and to feel your kiss
I will wait with my heart in my hands for you
To say I lied, I didn’t mean it & I love you too