An Almost Letter Poem by James McLain

I first met you at Suncoast,
A mental health facility where most like me
Went as well.
You once worked for Florida's, D.C.F.
Your small light cinnamon colored hands held out
Their attraction to me.

My diognosis of,
ICD10: F31.76 bipolar disorder, in full remission,
Most Recent Episode Depressed Severe,
With Psychotic Features DSMIV: V71.09 - No Diagnosis
Or Condition (ISC) DSMIV: V71.09a - No Diagnosis On Axis 2
I CD10: F39 - Episode mood disorder ICD10: F31.5 -
Bipolar one Disorder Most Recent Episode Or Current
Depressed Severe Specified As With Psychotic Behavior
ICD10: F84.9 - Atypical Autism
White Male, Age: 59

I see in you, angels and God, when once a month
We meet.
And you know I'm obsessed over my fourteen year old
Daughter who's been taken away from her mother four times
Since I left.
Having her at age forty five and her mother my first and
Only wife that I married in a church at forty two.

Ambitious your dream is to work with veterans, where as
My only dream is to be reunited with my only child, my daughter.
I constantly thank you and by this I can only hope that
You never become overwhelmed by me.

ANGELS AND GOD'S , but never having met, I have never
touched one.
Being young go with the famous and learn
about those who've been harmed.
About fame worry not, leave your healing mark
On the Bodies and Soul's, you've to meet.

If I had never met you,
I would probably have been sent off to jail or prison.
So unfair to you and I like so many other's but in there not you,
Or to me.
I cannot say if in the end it was best like this.

Sincerely Yours,
I endevor to remain, James McLain


Copyright © James McLain | Year Posted 2017