Apology To My Husband Poem by Kimberly Lindsey

I feel as if I must apologize,
To the man that always stands by my side.
For causing him worry and grief,
And making his blood pressure rise.

When I have a moment, I am not me.
And I clam up like a caught thief.
I can not communicate, I know this he hates.
But try as I might, it’s beyond my ability.

And the more that he tries to talk,
The more annoyed I get and balk.
And the more he tries to talk,
And I know it is all my fault.

This one lasted four days.
This one was actually quite bad.
If I could just… find a way,
I would do it today.

How can I make it stop?
For a while, I do so well
And then my mind spins out of control,
like a top… who do I tell?

I try very hard to make it stop, but I can’t
And it scares me to death ‘cause it won’t.
Why does it happen at all,
And what sets it off?