At Times Poem by Ala elouri

At times, I wish That I can see you here in my akward life..
At times, I wish I can open my heart
And tell you what you actually mean to me.
But I am afriad to give you the lost key of my heart..
I am afraid you'd read my heart,
And know that without out you I have never been so weak.
Without you I am feeling that I can't breathe..
Look in my emotional eyes.
And you'll see that your my life...
But I run, Run in the streets trying to look for a trace..
But your so far away, Oh yes so far away...
As I walk so far, to the farthest place that I can reach...
My heart starts to race, Because you left..
Without leaving me a trace,
Or even a name to erase..
And a face to keep away from my race.
You left me empty, but no matter where I run
No matter where I hide..
No matter where I try to hide the tears in my eyes,
You just follow me everywhere..
But if you do, where are you and why can't I see your face?
If i see your face, I will finally have something to forget and erase..
And throw right out of my way..
Like how you forgot me and my name..
I will, Just tell me you will go away...
Fly like the birds fly..
Cry like how real humans cry..
Feel the pain I felt in this life..
Feel the tears fall right down on your face..
So you understand that when I was there in your life,
You had never been weak..
You had never needed to feel the same way..
I feel right now..
Good bye, I would rather live in pain than run all that way
And live on hope that one day,
you will want to call my name
And say I need you in my life.

Ala Elouri