Bad Conversation Poem by Laura arwen

I want explore
my world
I don't want
to be involved
in something uncontrollable
I feel so
distant from modernity
I believe there
are no interesting
actions in my
world
I have to
find a compromise
between my obsessions
I can not
escape from my
imperfections
Sometimes it hurts
not to have
someone to love
deeply
I feel useful
when I'm alone
I feel oppressed
when I think
too much
I want reveal
my confused mind
I'm not practical
to converse with
people
I find difficult
socializing with men
I want to
find comfort for
my inner suffering
My mind is
running fast
There isn't good
choices for me
I don't like
to have a
lot of work
It's my decision
to live in
the cold silence
I appreciate the
delicate beauty
I want take
decisive solution for
my life
I have a
wrong nature