Battle Scars Poem by James Darwin Smith II

This is just a generalization
Of a certain aspect
Upon my own life
Maybe it's over
Maybe it's under?
Who knows what is wrong
Or what is right


Looked on
Down and over
By different eyes
Yet, with the same visions
Seeking the same sight
Foundering this heart
To a mere hopeless strife


But what is it all mean?
If I cannot look into the bright
Light of change
Fate rearranged
To a new start
Destroying love's malice
With the weapon of hope
Against its strife


Who knows how or when or where?
Perhaps I will take myself on a dare
To go to the deepest unknowns
Searching to better myself
All on my earnest own


Who am I?
Of desire
An enemy of mired souls
Floating up
As they sink down
To finally disappear
Upon this mind's behold



I have given so much hope
To wishy washy dreams
All of everything
Never caring for my own sanity


So much faith
Patience and all


Accepting every flaw
That in each experience
Never seemed to be returned
To this sender's admiration
Spiraling down into a void left distraught



Saw hearts get destroyed
By narcissistically inclined hosts
Infectious selves who love to boast
Tainting all that they can
So they can turn beauty
Into the ugliness of their souls



But here I am
Well over and all
Out of the fog
And into the light



Seeing the truths
Even before they are seized
Prophesies of dreams
And every wonderful thing



And now here I have learned
This all has made me wiser than ever before
As educated as I am
Life has taught me so much more



And after spite comes solace
Must stop over analyzing everything
It is great to think too much at times
But to overthink in something too simple
Will never give these thoughts a much needed respite
*


What is love is love
And I have so much time
To express myself in full
No matter what happens next
In this proudly complicated life
*


I am fine
I am well
*


Just a poet living
Dandiest of errors
On the worst state
Of a proudly bittersweet respite
*


Here is too my ever flawed life!
*


There is no ebb here
Just a tsunami flowing
Through troubled times
Till the day I seize eternal light
*


I am me and mine
And today
That is all just fine
*


Watch me if you will
But always seek me within
Then I will start unwinding
*


Here I am
Between young and old
Feeling both in certain ways
Trying to live a much better life
*


I am me
I am free
Take it or leave it
*


And there is no end
Because no matter what
I will always be alright
*


I am after all proudly scarred for life