there must be
another way of being in the world
I must have said to myself as a child
not wanting to depart the shores of childhood.
after seeing Peter Pan, thinking I can,
I can do that too.
keep wearing the same shoe.
the little dress.
and hang my coat on the same hook
reading whatever books I want to.
always the same height as the flowers
the taller ones. maybe the iris; one bright snow sprigged tree.
I will be quiet when they speak to me.
they won't find out I can speak in complex sentences
without even trying.
I'll be steady as a star
over the same backyard forever
in my head.
I'll go to work.
and pay the bills.
and make my bed;
manage my small meals
but in my mind
oh, how I really feel is this:
I'm in the hills
and gathering up blue dusk
the only way I must
the way I always will.
mary angela douglas 31 january 2019
This poem has not been translated into any other language yet.
I would like to translate this poem
I like this, it's very personal, very vivid, and easy to relate to. Childhood has its haunts and secret places, good and bad. Some memories would be nice to revisit. Some I'd run like the wind from. This is really well penned. Keep writing.