Breaking Out Poem by Jo Elliott

Transformation This one started with letting them know that I am going to take care of myself and make sure there is now a distance between us. I always believed they would never pursue me by coming round and they never did. That would have been a step into their fear of rejection and a way of them being able to face the fact that not everything goes their way, unless you manipulate that it. I knew they would only be at my door if I let them back into my life and I also knew that if I did there had to be a line there couldn't cross. That was my threshold. I kept it like this for well over a year, they asked many times if they could come in, the answer was always no. This helped me because I had my haven where I retired to. I never had this before, their energy was everywhere and it took me a long time to remove this energy. Once I did I was able to create my haven how I wanted it. It was always my place to return to regardless of what happened in life. I invited them into my home when I needed a job doing that I couldn't carry out by myself, they were there, so I asked for help and it showed me how they were. They didn't want to be here, they were there only because they thought it would give them a way out. Plus it got them out of their own created mess. When they realised that they didn't have a way in they started to withdraw, then expected me to need them. This was always the pull, half a job, so they could return. The thing is when you go and stay away because it suits you people get on with life and this was what I did! This poem was my breakthrough from being stuck where I was to moving forward to finding my own way on life. It did take time, it happened though and my home is my haven. They placed their energy around so it was inevitable that they just slipped in, but that didn't happen with me. They are gone from my life now; I receive a text every so often, although the energy of these has changed. The texts have returned to having no energy within them again, I could be anyone again, which suits me fine! I saw in this journey with them that I can sense their projections and decipher them from me and I was unafraid of letting them know I knew this and that it doesn't work anymore. When they were allowed in it became dodgy ground, I can admit that, but circumstances being what they are meant I wasn't available to them and it was too much like hard work for them to pursue it. It had to come from me and when it didn't they buggered off.