I wish I knew why I felt this way,
why I want to hear all the lies you say.
Why I feel the only way my heart will mend
is by having you in my life,
even as a friend.
I tell you the negative though to keep you at bay
so it doesn't seem that you get your own way.
You tell such lies,
it's not all me,
I just hope that one day I will be free
of this invisible hold
because of how I feel
and each day my eyes will open
to the world that is real.
I no longer want to drag myself down,
I want to smile at the world
not cry and frown.
It hurts so much on the days that are hard
knowing how easy it was for you to discard
all memories of me and go to pastures new,
although,
realistically,
it was a third of a few.
I have to face the fact that this will never be
and get strong enough to allow myself to be free,
realise that it's me that is still holding on
because I don't want to believe that it's really all gone.
I try desperately to see all of your flaws,
all the while,
I'm clutching at straws.
I have to tell myself that there's many more
people out there
waiting to love and adore,
that I am worthy of someone to show they love me
and that there is someone out there
happy with I can be.
Yet as long as I hold my candle for you
how can I allow their love to shine through?
I'm making good progress each day that arrives,
with each positive moment
my well being thrives.
There are many knocks,
I have to deal with these,
'til I can bring out the girl
who is so easy to please.
I can get my life back on track then
and maybe one day
learn to trust again.
Thank you for reading 💖
This poem has not been translated into any other language yet.
I would like to translate this poem