Call Me Selfish Poem by juliet sinclarie

Call me selfish
If you like
Depression is taking over this never ending night
Dark room, dark thinking
Gasping for air, wishing my eyes would stop blinking
I want it all to end once and for all
Ive fallen to the ground to many times, I can no longer crawl
My faith in everything is lost
The love of my family is the cost
Putting them before me
I cant live without them in reality
I listened to that same song over and over again
It replays itself in my head
All I wanted to do was help them get away
But their fear took over and they chose to stay
I cant, not any more
I came in this life alone and now its my time to go
Forgive me for any misery or pain Ive put you through
I hope one day you can understand my reason too.