Captured Poem by CHARMAINE SIMPSON

You took my hand-
Held me so close-
Kept me safe - and warm.
You found a place for me within your soul,
To keep me from being scared and alone.
This place you gave to me felt strange at first and so uncertain,
You gently created a certainty that I began to trust.
You gave to me acceptance-
You loved me for me-
You assured the doubt I held inside,
That your love was not attached to any conditions.
I began to feel as though I belonged in the place you gave me-
I began to like it here and I let go of my safety net.
As the net began to fall away -
There was a feeling of emptiness all around me.
There was no longer anything to hold on to,
You also now - let go.
Slowly I started to feel myself fall,
Very slowly like floating but falling down-
Down with no one to catch me.
A feeling of emptiness- uncertainty- and fear,
Suddenly - you captured me.
You took me from this emptiness you had created.
Now trapped me within the confines of your walls.
These walls you built while you had me waiting,
Unaware and falling in love with you.
Within your boundaries now unable to escape,
The love I have attached to you I am unable to release.
These confines so full of rules and orders that i must follow,
If disobeyed you open the door that lay beneath my feet,
Allowing me to fall and suffer the consequences -
With you no longer as my support-
My love-
My friend-
My safety-
My warmth-
My security-
Then you will leave me -
Falling-
Alone in a darkness -
That is unknown-
Waiting-
To hit the bottom-
To be crushed like never before.


September 2005