Composure Poem by Lindsay King

fall apart down the line
god what i wouldn't have given
for just a shred of composure
his smiles are mean spirited
as he takes the last of his things
leaving me just with the hurt
and i can't find the words
to beg him to stay
yet i don't have the strength
to push him away

turn around, i collapse on the couch
god i know its better this way
find some means to hide my weakness
he doesn't care what he's done
nor the side of the story
he chose to just dismiss
it should be enough
for me to let him go
but it's just enough
to make the pain show

oh, these things we lose
to the ones we love
when we can't let them know
they're the ones we think of

his bite matches his spite
god, i just want to forget
a mark left well behind
the apartment now empty
his things in her car
in the bedroom i hide
behind the nothingness left
all the memories now gone
she starts the car
what did i do wrong?

he left the necklace
god, it wasn't an accident
it sat on the kitchen counter
i hold it between my fingers
let it dangle for just a minute
we weren't meant to be together
where is the strength
i longed to have
buried beneath
the things i never had

oh, these things we lose
to the ones we love
when we can't let them know
they're the ones we think of