Conflict Poem by Debbie DrummondHay

Silence shatters the mist of my tears
Heart-wrenching tenderness and pain fight for a place in my soul,
which will be the one to conquer my aching heart?

I question my solitude and emptiness
Drowning myself in thought and confusion over love,
Do I deserve joy within my abstract existence?

Doubt settles into my blood
Scouring the bounty of my shell, seeking a home within me,
Am I able to function as a human being?

Sincerity and truth will not come
How many times will I expose myself to questions,
How many times will I fail Joy?

Conflict within me has taken over
Dreams pillaged by self loathing over chances taken
Could my love ever co-exist with another?