Confused Poem by wandering star

Confused



Confused state of mind
Confused state of acting
Confused emotions
Conflicting feelings
Afraid to love
Afraid to risk
Afraid of hurt
Wanting to take the risk
Feeling numb
Acting dumb
Wondering if it’s worth it
Wondering if he’s worth it
Wondering too much
Too used to flying on a flight of fancy
Not wanting to lose control
Yet not wanting to be calculating
Not wanting to end up hating
Everyone including myself
Terrified of ending up alone
Yet wanting to be isolated
Away from love, warmth and false security
Not wanting to get too close
Keeping my distance
For fear of eventually having to
Trying to suppress these feelings
Wondering if these are feelings
Wondering why I cannot feel the way I used to
And not understanding
Once bitten twice shy
Is it really worth a try?
To live to love
And love to live
Always being afraid to give
Afraid to share
Afraid of pain
Afraid of disappointment and hurt
Wondering if it would be better
Not to care
But is it a life that could have been?
A cold and lonely empty life
With no-one to care for
Because I have cared too much already
Time heals all wounds
Time opens more
Absence makes the heart grow fonder
Absence makes me used to being alone
Lack of trust
Lack of respect
Lack of love
Perhaps lacking for too long-
So long I have grown accustomed
To such lacking
And have accepted it
Unwillingly?

COMMENTS OF THE POEM

Wow.. you did really well on this poem.. this is so true from top to bottom. I love the feelings and thoughts that you expressed in this poem. A lot of people are afriad of love and to get hurt but then again we all had to experience such pain to be scared of it.. I can relate to this poem so much.. Thank you for sharing this with me.. I give it a 10.. Krista

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