Conjugated Emotions Poem by Vision Ghost

A sense of ambiguity dwells hard, on uncertainties
Drifting in waves across my mind, in complexities
Long, hard and slow, has been the new road so far
As do I tread onward, though there’s no guiding star

So dark these nights have become and in nightmares
I feel the longing to be held again, into free felt layers
Where conscious thought, beckons a sense of release
That no words foundered, describes the ending lease

Though not so lost and without direction, I am alone
And so fearing the soul to be a heart, of a grey stone
The waves of this sensation wash over me, yet again
Conjugated with an overwhelming, sense of this pain

I am alive for everything else that I missed, somehow
As I awoken to a fathoming, of what is here and now
Still undecided as to what to feel today, or tomorrow
As I stammer across overwhelming, burning sorrow

But that was yesterday and slowly I become strong
Before I reckon to something, now lost for so long
Always so beautiful, like the first star of the evening
That my memories serve me, in dreams of yearning

For a moment to hold you again, but nothing more
Thus never to risk leaving your heart, lost and sore
I see this place so baron and without, any meaning
Though I feel something inside, has started healing

Collapsing unto a the softest, of all landings eludes
For the human comfort I need, so seemingly deludes
So elusive a race for love, has so become exhausting
That I render the efforts and cease, into this running

But now I am still; I ponder on so much unanswered
What shall come next and where I shall be delivered?
So more than this, will always wonder and thus remain
The constant of a question; will I ever see you again?