Happy when in saddness,
Lonely but love being alone,
Crying but no one can see tears,
Sleeping but unable to sleep,
Dreaming even though I'm awake.
Why am I always contradicting myself?
Afraid and brave,
Surrounded by everyone but so empty,
Dying and alive,
Loving and always hating,
Caring but unconcerned.
Why am I constantly going backwards?
One step forward two steps back,
Flying but failing,
Wishing but not hoping,
Trying but giving up,
Holding my breath but breathing like nothing's wrong,
Lying and always telling the truth.
Why am I always contradicting myself?
August 2007
This poem has not been translated into any other language yet.
I would like to translate this poem
great poem! many times i too have wallowed in contradiction. i felt a real truth in these lines, this is a great expression of a complex state of mind