Damn Friendship! * Poem by L.P. Alexanders

Everyday is very similar to the day before
Feelings are bleeding from the core of my heart
a deep place where I cannot look for anymore,
look for a remedy that were not tart.

I don't know what to do
I wish to have choices, at least two
that someone tells me
'together, you two are meant to be.'

I've learned a lot of things from you;
However, my memory has a leak
because When I see you, all that is in my mind is you,
but the truth is... you're out of my league.

For me, you are my significant other
but for you, I am like your brother
I have found my soul mate,
but you, just a classmate.

I would have liked to know you in a different way
and not to become your friend, at least, not in the first place
We share a relationship from the beginning to this day,
but this is not the one I want to taste.

I wish to be more than your pal
I want you to see me through another crystal
I desire that you know my real feelings I have inside,
but if you do not, I'd have to step aside.

So, I'd prefer to sacrifice my happiness
and if to myself, I'd have to lie
I'd do it, no matter if I feel hopeless
because if you are content so am I.


*a high school memory, written 2/24/08