Darkest State Of Mind Poem by Balint Nagy

I don't feel right, quite the opposite
Everything's so unharmonized
This gun in my hand makes me realize
I still don't know where did the monster go,
What I was
I'm just

So tired, paralyzed
Everything is crashing down
Nothing makes me happy anymore
So tired, paralyzed
Everything is crashing down
Nothing makes me happy anymore

I ran out of my patience
No more simulations
Everything's meaningless and dark
I'm slipping away
Don't want to stay
Running out of time
I don't seem to find any more happiness
In this darkest state of mind

Consumed by my own conviction
Condemned to imperfection
Choking in this toxic milieu
Can't you see me falling apart?
It's both our fault…

I'm

So tired, paralyzed
Everything is crashing down
Nothing makes me happy anymore
So tired, paralyzed
Everything is crashing down
Nothing makes me happy anymore

I ran out of my patience
No more simulations
Everything's meaningless and dark
I'm slipping away
Don't want to stay
Running out of time
I don't seem to find any more happiness
In this darkest state of mind

So tired, paralyzed
Everything collides
Darkest state of mind
So tired, paralyzed
Everything collides
Darkest state of mind

I ran out of my patience
No more simulations
Everything's meaningless and dark
I'm slipping away
Don't want to stay
Running out of time
I don't seem to find any more happiness
In this darkest state of mind