Darkness Poem by Sadie Vanity

Tears of black rundown my face
i dont know what to say
as i am silenced by the thoughts in my head
i dont know how to deal with this anymore
i cant sleep
i cant eat
its like darkness has consumed me
swollowing me whole
deep inside i feel brokeness
and dont know why
so much is happening
so much is hurting me
its like an all time low
and i ask myself how i get through this
my answer is i dont know
i feel crushed by a weight so heavy
standing on my own is so hard
its like i get weaker every second
till my bones crack and my heart breaks
every time i got to stand
something pushes me down
like a wounded animal
i stagger and try and stand again
why do people hate me so much
why do they tell me to slit my wrist
and kill myself
im alone stuck in my world
its like a numbing iceilation
but all i feel is pain
running through me
as my tears bleed out and fall like rain
why cant people understand me
and look past everything on the outside
whats wrong with me
why am i not ok
what is this emptyness i feel inside