Decide Poem by Nassy Fesharaki

Decide

Was in bed when rang bell,
Picked the phone and answered
Was pleased, it was her.

Ran away, embarrassed
When pillow appeared.

She wants to be lover
In a way, I accept
But there are conditions
Wonder if shall accept!

I am night, she is day!

No, no, no, yes, yes, yes
The two words play game.

Lost I am between the
Goddamn heart and brain
Since latter has knowledge
Prior has kindness…

Mature girl with wisdom
Wants a life with success
(A normal process…
We all want progress.)

"Stand up and help her, "
Says the voice from chest.

"Is no good for either, "
Echoes sound in the head.

I am lost in the air,
Love her and admire,
Tickles me desire,
Lust plays dirty game.

I am lost in the air,
What is my next step?
Should go on or regress!

We root in same place,
I know of missing girls,
Their causes almost same.

Is she not another?

"She is a flower,
Fertilize, water her,
So, go on marry her,
Stand guard defend her, "
Is dream, every day.

"She is a flower,
Go away and leave her,
You are thorn and hurt her
You can cause shame for her, "
Is nightmare, every day.

If I do for her sake,
Means lying as cheater,
Criminal, abuser
Of the laws and system.

If follow for my sake
I have lied to myself
Since we are different!

She is one of the kinds
That loves to beautify,
Lipsticks, right makeup
Her nails are artificial.

I love things when natural
As are born and will die…

She and me are nothing
But a day against night.

Marry her?
How can I?
Not to help?
How can I?