Demons Poem by SarahLouise Neild

In my head there's never silence, a constant buzz of voices, they snigger, point their finger and run. They leave me drained, they leave me tired.

They show me the laughter, the ones that make fun, they hit me when I want to ignore. ' You'll never be good enough ' Day after day they pull a pun ' You're disgusting! ' ' You'll never be good enough! '
and I listen and I quote religiously to myself, to remember... to punish.

In my dreams is when they slumber, unless they want to play and chant their favourite number ' You'll never be good enough ' From darkness I awake ' disgusting! ' I find the mirrors worse I wish they would smash and hide what I see, the voices they laugh and call out to me ' You'll never be good enough '

Sometimes I am blind sometimes I go deaf...sometimes I want to die ' Your disgusting, your a mess, just look at the way you dress! Can't you see? we all know deep down your just as ugly as me! '

Yes your right, I must be..what an ugly demon you are inside me.

I feel the injustice before I hit the ground, life has knocked me down once more..should I get up? Can I take much more? ' You'll never be good enough! '

As I lay and I wait I watch the world pass me by in a brilliant haze and I think to myself in the end...will I ever be good enough?