Despondent Poem by Nunam Lawati

I never knew
How dumb it would feel like,
Watching you tresspass
This boundry i had secured.
It never felt so real
While i let you in,
And then I wonder
When was the last time,
I had suffocated so much
Wanted you this bad.
I had never let you in
Cause i thought you would leave
Right at that point
When i call out your name.
It was then when i realized
Spiritually my soul got into you
Heart started racing
Instantly when i saw you.
I was confused
I was happy
I was scared
I was cursed.