Nunam Lawati

i smile even though it's painful
too painful to realize
yet there's another day to go through
But a smile, just for a second
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Sometimes,
I wonder
What it would feel like
To feel nothing at all.
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Tip toeing i shout I am here
18 years of long time
Yet i do not know
Where i could find myself.
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I wonder
How would it feel like
To be loved in a way
Where everything assures you,
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Lost in that crowd
I know no one who would protect me
Push and pull of all assaults
I bet people would only see,
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Things are not the same anymore
Your love does not feel lively,
I know your trapped between guilts
But it is not okay for you to stand there silently.
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For being the person
I did not intend to fall in love,
I was naive, i was dumb
Peculiarly your forbidden angel.
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Satisfied with all the agony
And grudges submerged,
I could not help myself and lie
When i said ' i was okay '.
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In the album of memories, I'm a face from the past,
Our encounter warmed my heart, forever that feeling shall last.

Over oceans, up mountains high,
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Hey!
Do you see me
Walking past you?
Trying to look so fine
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I never knew
How dumb it would feel like,
Watching you tresspass
This boundry i had secured.
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I am just a girl
Bounded with number of rules
With no further hope
Of living life to the fullest.
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As the wind swirl
As the rain drizzle all over,
I see my reflection there
I see a wounded soldier.
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Hey! It's 12 am
I am still waiting here
For him to reply back
And text sweet goodnight
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To the world i lied
Saying i was fine
When every part of me was shaken
Trying to live yet another day,
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will this sorrow end?
will this heart be happy?
cause i no more am so strong
to fight and prove that i am not wrong
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Left behind in sorrow,
she walks alone with pain.
A depth that got lost inside her,
the thoughts that kept her in vain.
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Uncertain about what's going to happen next
And Perception of things that are not even there
I am tired of forcing myself,
showing people what i want them to see,
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You would not believe me
If i say,
I cry every night with my mouth closed
Trying not to scream
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Where were you?
When i needed you the most
Had i not searched for you
Had i not bothered?
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