Behind The Mask Poem by Nunam Lawati

Tip toeing i shout I am here
18 years of long time
Yet i do not know
Where i could find myself.
I am starting all over again
I am trying but i failed,
Yet i never gave up
Cause it's a part of life they said.

They made me trust them
As dumb as i could be
I let them enter inside my soul
And leave away so helpless i could be.
I was scared of lies
That was what all they knew
But left me in deceit
And oath very few.

For i shall never trust anyone
I shall never let someone break me
These were the words i misprisioned
Two years back when anxiety held me.
Trapped between the echoes
Of failures that haunts
I preach to people and say
Erase away whatever taunts.
But hey! i am not okay
Covered with bruises and scars
How can i not get hurt
Lonely as i walk
With a mask that covers the cut.