Dont Know How I Truly Feel Poem by angel of passion 016

wishing nite and day
tht only if i could run away
dropp everything family friends
even the one i care about most
just 2 start a new fresh life
for my soon to be newborn bby
only 17 gunna b a mother
how can i evr even discover
to be perfectly
its gunna be hard
im gunna fight and struggle
with all my might
to make my child have a good life
even with no support or help from anyone i thought tht cared
i wish i knew whts to do or where to start stressed out
scared crying day and nite wanting 2 nvr fight
i feel suicidal but dont have the guts
i feel overly stressed like everyone wants something from me
im so scared 2 b alone do this alone and 2 give birth
im scared something gunna happen to me or the bby
im scared im gunna die in the delivery room
i dont think my emotions or thinking is normal
i want and need help
you dont know how i truly feel