Eaten From The Inside Poem by Sven Rhoads

I have this deed that I fear to let out
Rotting me down to the very core
I can feel it taking another piece of me
Until I am hollow forevermore
It makes me sick to my very soul
All these words stuck in my throat
Sleepless and reckless every day
And how I dread to fully unload

So in silence you cannot see
I am being eaten from the inside
My unspoken words become a demon
That bring about mental homicide
Every word is carved into my skin
And I cannot make the stain come clean
This abuse that I constantly go through
Is turning into a killing machine

I dont know whether to release you
And face the consequence of the past
I dont know if I should keep you
Knowing the sickness will never pass

I cant control just how you all feel
When you see sorrow upon my face
But at least you dont seen the anguish
That is leaving me such a bitter taste
I cant feel the justification
I cant feel the liberation
I just know that the beast inside
Is everyday just eating me alive