Eternally Alone Poem by RoseAnn V. Shawiak

Struggling to survive in the most unlikely place and space
in time, wandering pathways of yesterday, wondering why the
scenery has changed for the worse.

Tear-stained eyes, red and swollen from crying, taking me to
the farthest reaches of humankind, searching for someone kind
and gentle to understand and help know what is going
on.

There are no opportunities to seek answers here, for every
thing has been dumped unceremoniously, leaving me to make of
it what I can.

Laugher ringing in my ears, heart being wrung like a sponge
and yet no tears will come.

Pain of a lifetime wrapped in cellophane, on display, but
cannot express feelings of worthlessness, because of not
deserving any of this.

Coiled tightly, ready to spring upon anyone who even talks,
recoiling once again from the world and it's people, because
not liking being hurt by them.

Wrapping self tightly in another cocoon, hiding from other's
diversity and making self a home alone.

There will be no recriminations, not speaking to another
living soul, trust gone from this vocabulary for good.

Don't look again on this earth, no longer to be found by
anyone in this world after this one is done.

A final declaration of freedom to all who wish to know, now
gone to a special place to be eternally alone.