Feeling Lost... Poem by Sebastian Melmoth

Why did you have to leave me alone in this cruel world
You were both my rock, my constant, my protectors, my parents who became my closest friends
Beats me down every night when I lay on pillow and I cry tears of loss and despair
Circle of tragedy, the fait-accompli for sure the strings of guidance on the frail puppet have now been snipped
Death by self-destruction, emotions spewing out of me all the time in random directions
Vibrant colours once filled my heart but now the grey is the only colour, I see
Feelings of failure, a living monument of disappointment on display at the modern circus freak show
Will the good in me return, be discovered once more after spending a lifetime looking for your approval
Laissez-faire the purpose has gone leaving me unplugged all alone in my pathetic existence
Will peace come will public opinion be the nails that seal my coffin lid
Will I have time to rebuild a new me, from the crumbling ashes of my being
When the dawn of recompense comes will the light shine on the doorway to new purpose or on the body of tragedy lying on top of lost soul's hill.