The murky blues and fumes,
When fresh air comes to blow these issues away
But the breath of fresh air crawls past me.
I surrender to its awful implications.
I wish I could appear stronger.
I wish I could leave as a man.
But I cannot say a word.
Can not utter a single sound.
I'm too much in love with misery.
So to misery I travel again.
Wish it wasn't so.
Wish it wasn't me.
Wish I could live but as it is,
I cut my hair.
I cut my nails.
I cut my heart.
Nothing bleeds.
Nothing hurts.
Nothing feels.
Everything in me is like a breath
of stale coffee.
A touch of moulding cigarettes.
Summer comes and goes.
Winter brings defeat.
Spring is fresh flowers.
Autumn is their death.
Like me.
I cry.
I sleep.
I die inside.
This poem has not been translated into any other language yet.
I would like to translate this poem