I have been lying dormant for years
The person who I am meant to be
I was forever cowering in my own pain
I hid from the world my shame
Thinking to myself its best they not know
What a horrible person I have become
I believed myself unfit and unclean
To be a part of this earthly world
Scrubbing myself clean till I was raw to the bone
Then anger came…
It filtered through my pain
How dare he lay claim to my soul?
It was a like a slow burning ember
That was fuelled by pure hate
Hatred was never ending
It ate away at my soul
It consumed my essence
Of whom I should have been
I gave up my dreams and hopes
And replaced it with nightmares and horror
And as the most famous quote in the bible says
I have walked through the valley of death
Its dark abyss gave me no hope
I grew weary of my pain
The burdens too much to bare
Desperate to be free of this hell
I then dropped on bended knees
To pray to the lord
And beg for his mercy
It felt like a fire burning inside me
As I felt this warmth start to spread
Within my soul
I cannot explain exactly how it felt
But this warm and peaceful feeling
Has now found its love within me
Contentment is what I feel
Each and every day
And the beauty denied me
Surprises me each day
Nature’s beauty all around us
Is something to treasure
Because our lord Father gave it to us
In pure faith and harmony
The lest we can do is treat it with love
I see a new path…I walk with a skip and a jump
I now know who I am and were I’m gonna be
Just wanted to share with you
A tiny bit of me
Smiles
©Kaila George 2013
This poem has not been translated into any other language yet.
I would like to translate this poem
Nice transformation from shyness, melancholy and anger to happiness, faith and love. A good poem.