Forgive Me Please Poem by Ala elouri

My feelings are twisted.
My feelings are very hard to be seen.
Knowing that you love me and you will never stop.
It breaks me into two..
I wish I could love you,
Yet, You can't seem to understand that I love someone else.
As this whole wide world.
As the dark, blue seas.
I love that person and I will never stop to please.
My friend, My admirer
Life is big.
So why not take the risk and go and look for someone who will love You from all their heart?
I know it hurts.
I know you feel pain.
Yet, I can't do anything.
I cant fix the pain.
My heart can't let you in.
My heart can't open the doors..
My heart let its love take the key to my locked, loving heart
My love is the one who has the key to my heart.
My love is who I really need.
Not you my friend..
Not you.
I seem to feel you think I don’t care that you feel this way.
But My heart is feeling guilt severly for not feeling the same.
I realized this is life and I should let go.
I realized the one I love is who I will be with till the end.
Not you, you're not for me.
Or Even close to ever be with me
You aren’t for me.
You aren’t the one who I dream at night of.
You aren’t the one I need and truly desire.
You're just someone who wishes I could show up one day in their Life.
Although, I won't..
Although, I will never
The one I love will stay forever from today.
My love is what I feel
My love is who makes me frown and makes me smile.
My love is whom, isn’t you!
My love isn’t you.
So I'm sorry.I'm so sorry forgive me

I know the one I love is far.
And hard to be reached.
Yet, I have hope till the end of each year
Honestly, I wish you could stay with me when I'm alone..
And fade away slowly when my lover is close..
Forgive me..I'm not the one to be blamed..
Your heart shouldn't have held all that emotions..
Your heart is the one to blame.
I never let you in my heart.
I never let you see the good and loving things in me.
I have been so hard on you.
I have been so tough.
Just for you
So you finally get out of my way.
And find a love to live for you forever.
It doesn’t work this way..
It doesn’t work when you have one side in love.
I'm not in love with you.
I'm in love with that human being you call 'It'
I love that person yes indeed.
So I'm so sorry.
That's all I have to explain & plead
I'm so sorry.
Forgive me please

Ala Elouri