Forgiveness From The Heart Poem by Kaila George

How can one forgive the sins of the past

if the Perpetrator is not upon this earth

is not facing them the idea to forgivness

I feel sad that I was never able to do in life

What should of been done so long ago

If I had faced him back then.....

I would of ranted and raged....

Even cause him harm....(I look away in shame)

I was given the oppertunity...once

I was in hospital so was he as chance would have it

My mother she asked me to visit him

I couldnt...I couldnt even face him (hangs head in shame)

But it would not of been worth my time behind bars

at least thats what I thought back then

I learnt how to hate...with every fiber of being...(turns away in shame)

How could one react at only seven years of age...

How can one bear the pain for so long

You learn to survive, you learn to hate

But when you reach a certain part in your life were you know its time....

All that hating and ranting and raving....when you no longer need too....

What do you do....from then on...if thats all you ever really knew...

I feel unsure...confused....scared, ...and I really don't know what to do...

Help! ! !