Future Phobic Poem by Jennifer Sollmann

And I’m terrified of what the future will bring
A picture with an empty space you should fill
A faded smile gray with sadness and fear
The ghost of your hand sliding into mine
Whispers of words you used to say slipping away
Without you where do I stand?
You used to define me, there was no me without you
And now you’re gone, who am I now?
I am a nobody.
Lost in the crowd, just another body, emotions painted
On my face in an impressionist’s angst
I fear what the future entails, for without you
I am a wayward sheep wandered away from the flock
My friends say they miss my bright smile, I do too
But you took it with you, ripped it off my face
And galloped away on your high horse
Not a hint of remorse in your eyes, just emotionless pools
I’m clinging to the past, though it hurts like hell
It’s as familiar to me as my grandfather’s scent
Where does this leave me now?
I’m trailing along in the dust, chasing a dream
Of what used to be.
I’m a future phobic, once loved, now dreaming.