Go On And Judge Me. I Dare You. Poem by Kate Nielsen

I still can't believe it. I can't explain it, everyone will expect me to so what do I say? Where did I get it, how long has it been? It seems even the doctors can't even tell me. 'Numerous things may have occurred… unprotected sex… use of drugs…' I can't even focus, it's all gone wrong, along with all this, what about my friends, what about my boyfriend? You can't take things back, it's all off track, I'd rather just pack and - run. I'd rather be alone then ostracized by some, be judged and belittled. Yeah, maybe they're right, but I'm the one with the fight. I've done bad - in my life, but at lease I've - lived it. Forgive it, I didn't do this on purpose. I'm still the same person, same love, same hate. I hope you can see that before it's too late. This isn't a death sentence, none of us live forever, I guess my times a little more concentrated, I'll have to be more cleaver on what I chose to do. Don't want to lose you, never abuse you. N.P.P. I truly am sorry, if it's not my fault it's still our story. Same goes to Beck, Stiff, and Steve, Moe, Eric, Rach, and Heather, who or whatever the - it was, we'll all go down together. I love you all.