Happiest Birthday Angel Jk Poem by Shaakiera Schroeder

Birthdays remembered, happy...uttered softly;
There's nothing happy about this day anymore...there's no comfort in the cliche of celebrating your birth today...without you here...
I try not to cry but I haven't been able to stop..yet!
It hurts so much, it just hurts too much...'YOU' not being here...the lack of a physical you...a you that can lift me up and swing me around...or the you that use to squeeze the air our of me with your special 'monkey' hugs!
'You're in a better place' 'there's no pain'...that's what they say right?
If I hear someone say that one more time to me....hrrrrr...I SWEAR...
Its not right man! ! Its just NOT RIGHT!
Its your Birthday dude...we should be able to dance together again...
Instead...
Here I am, spending my day with emptiness and darkness...
Chilling with the memories, crying... And laughing...
The truth is when you spoke those words'I'm dying'...my heart shattered. And its never been the same!
See its not that you my friend was here and now you're gone...what's most important is that you were here and we had you! Period...WE HAD YOU! !
So...Happiest Birthday Our Angel of Smiles..you're the greatest!
Loved intensely and missed immensely!
You will forever be remembered!
Love infinity,
SS(14/11/11)