Helpless Still Poem by Shaakiera Schroeder

HELPLESS STILL

Six months, ten days have passed
Yet nothing has changed
Time has not started since that April day…
Sadness remains
Tears constant
Helpless still…

Days remind me of a rollercoaster ride
Not one you enjoy…
But the dreaded kind…
Where every uncertain second
So unkind
One day bearable…
The next, a bottomless pit…
Falling,
Anger overwhelming
Emptiness always …
Helpless still

Alone…is what you prefer
Push and shove everyone that’s dear
Out of your life…you want no one near
If you don’t love anyone…you can’t lose anyone
Patience my answer…
But you won’t hear
Your fear suffocating
Can’t breathe…
Can’t walk…
Can’t live…
Helpless still

Days are awesome…remembering your ANGELS smile…
Remembering his antics…
That nearly drove you insane…
Days are awesome
As your face lights up with the lost smile that was hidden since that day…
As if not allowed,
Suddenly your laughter transforms into a sob…
Heartbreaking…
Soul wrenching…
Helpless still…

Sleep does not come easy…
Helpless still
Eat…what’s eat?
Helpless still

They say the pain lessens
Who are they?
Helpless still

Questions unanswered
All the why’s you ask
Helpless still

As you struggle
Day by day
Hour by hour
I am still here …right beside you…

Reminding you…I care…I love you.


Shaakiera Schroeder