Him Poem by Writing Tales

Yes, I love him
his personality, his charm
the way he talks,
the way he smiles, the way he looks at me, the way he comforts me
but I don't deserve him, his love, even his friendship.
This is the first time I feel like this.
Am I in love?
I did something to get your attention without knowing a girl was waiting for you,
without knowing your heart is full of love for her.
I opened my windows only because I could see you.
When you go to work, I watch you through my windows with a silent prayer on my lips,
"Please don't look back". I was scared that you would know my feelings.
I waited for you to see you return home; when I saw you, I suddenly closed the curtains
because I didn't want to let you know about my feelings. Even now, I am waiting for you.
I read our chats; there is nothing special, but that makes me smile.
I don't know how to describe this feeling. Is it love or a crush?
Maybe you have some misunderstandings about me, but I know you will not ask me about
them because you don't have anything. I don't think you care about me, but that's fine because
you have to be loyal to your girl.