Hope For A Lifetime Poem by Jayce McCormick

Is it really worth it, all of this pain and doubt
and to know that even with the almighty one, I never will amount
to anything this world can give me, to constantly fall out
of hope I get from fantasies that I have to live without

My talents bring me joy and I can make much good from them
and I pray at night the he will take it and let me pursue my successes for him
but I am told that I will fail, a gamble, yet it is true I know
So I ask, if there is a God, is he really there with me?

He is, I know he's there, watching over me
and I get hopes up and think that he will softly comfort me
yet he seems to be on the side of the one who says I never will
prevail to live a happy life with talent, even if I fail

I know I have, i'v failed so many, my loving family
and often times my friends and peers, an unfortunate too-many
and I look around and am happy where I am in my life right now
but I know that I am blinded and will probably crumble to the ground

My God, I know you are there with me, and I love you will all my soul
and I know that if i hold a dead-end-job, i'll remember what I was told
that you have a plan for everyone, and I know that you have in store
a purpose for everyone who lives for you, even for the poor

That's what i'll hold on to, if that is to be my fate
i'll eat whatever i can afford to thinly spread across my plate
and rest assured that you are in my soul and working in my life
and accept that those who went before me were right, and I was wrong

Father, if I do get cast down, do not despair for me
because it will be my pride that would cause me that to be
i'm not saying it will be easy with God, no it will be challenging
but there has to be a purpose for basically everything

Remember all those years ago when I laid on that hospital bed
the fear of death took hold and put confusion in our heads
but I was saved and left on Earth to complete my walk in faith
and I will full fill it, even if low of a life meets me face to face

But there is always another chance at this point, to turn it all around
and I do intend to try to, retrieve my mind from the lost and found
and I know that I haven't been the best of a son that's filled with glee
but someday I will fill in the gaps and live in harmony