How Long Poem by Garrett Binford

How long has it been?
How many nights? How many days?
That you have made my thoughts decay.
How long are you going to stay?
Causing sleepless nights,
Haunting my dreams.
Not able to close my eyes
All I see is surrounded by furious skies.
How long must you keep me awake
Threatening me, holding my life at stake.
If I stop thinking of you
Will I live? Will I die?
Will it matter? Is this life a lie?
Wanting to be with you, but scared to say
I love you! I want to be with you, to be able to stay.
Not these thoughts inside my head.
Not being tormented in my bed.
To be able to sleep without being scared.
To be able to dream without you being dead.
How long will it be? Ho long of a wait?
Will you be here when I wake?
Can I sleep? Can I dream?
To dream without dreaming frightful thoughts.
To be able to sleep, to control my fate
How long must I wait?
Must I keep my mind in hiding?
Or keep myself from seeing the sun shining.
How long will you stay? How long till your gone?
Must you make me feel death's throb?
How long till its over? How long til it ends?
Is this real or is my mind playing pretend?
Will you leave me or will you stay?
How long must our relationship decay?
Will you love me? Will you be true?
Will I last thru the night? Thru the day?
How long till I feel death's embrace?
How long till I feel peace of mind?
How long till I put you behind?
Can it be stopped? Will these thoughts end?
How long must I fake that I'm okay?
How long till you see me this way?
How many nights? How many days?
Only for as long as it takes.