I Am Stone.... Poem by RIC BASTASA

i did not find love,
it came to me, it did not count much,
it wooed me
i did not take heed to its calls,
i have no choice then
this pretense of loving, and
this prayer that time would be
changing and forgiving,
i have never known what true love is,
it pretended it arrived and i pretended
loving it, with all embrace, and kisses,
and loving,
but soon the truth finds its shadow
fuses itself with its body,
and it becomes one,
and love finds me but i have become numb
and blind and deaf,
and i have never known love,

and so forgive me.
i am stone.