I Just Wish Poem by Turuva Keli

I wish I was normal
I wish I was formal
I wish I was like my brothers
I wish I was like my father, and his fathers father

I wish my life wasn't complicated
I wish my life was communicated
I wish I was tamed
But all I have are flames

My integrity
My identity
My dignity
Gone in a blink of a second

Hide I shall
Hide I will

I wish I was complete
I paid the cost
It was me who took it all
the pain
the flashback
the pills
the numbness

Things I didn't choose
Yet I am tainted
I've lost
I paid the cost
Here I lay
underneath these shooting stars
flashes before my eyes
I'm breaking
In pieces
In fragments I float

Goodbye
Goodbye