I Live – To Die! Poem by Angelina Pandian

I would rather freeze in this moment
This moment of singular calm
Surrounded by Sea waves!
I wonder why? Why, we humans have to cry?
Why do we fret and worry?
Why do we feel needless pain?
Why self-inflict guilt and torture?
Can’t we learn from nature?
The fishes live with no care
The waves they roll and roll on forever
Things happen - But, they live
And die but, once - Unlike us,
Who die with every fear
And ever need a hope - And
A dream to keep alive!
I would rather sleep this moment
This moment of wakefulness
Surrounded by dark night,
I wonder why? Why,
We humans have power to think?
Why does our mind rebel?
Why, does our wisdom make us weep?
Aware of our shackles, our restrictions
Aware of our inabilities – And
Our short comings
Aware of our own frustrating existence
We keep awake - And
Dream of peace, of sleep!
I would rather die this moment
This moment of utter loneliness
Surrounded by silent walls – I scream,
I wonder why? Why,
We humans have to live?
Why do we have to play this game?
Why try to please those around us?
Why feel responsible and duty bound?
Why expect and be disappointed?
Why give, and be frustrated
By non-acceptance!
Why keep on rolling the dice for another try?
Can’t we just close our eyes,
And say, “I call it quits, Good-bye.”
Maybe I lack the courage
Maybe I still hope
Maybe my dreams keep me alive,
I do not know – But, I know
One day my life would stop
Yet, the world would keep going on,
So, with this awareness
I live –
To die!