I'M Sorry (Apology) Poem by Maya Garza

I dreamt of you last night,
a vivid, whirling pool of emotion.
I asked you if you hated me,
we were laying on the grass,
the stars were out.
You said, 'I do, but I understand.'
I was mesmerized by your competence,
jealous of your understanding.
I wanted your kiss.
'Your tongue said no, but your wild eyes,
your heart, and body said yes. I understand.'
I wanted your kiss, to take for my own where
nothing else was.
It was all 'was.'
We spoke, hushed voices in the dewy grass
while you explained your hurt.
It felt better to hear you say it -
you hated me.
I breathed.
The dream was so vivid,
I wished for your kiss.
Remind me.
Rewind me.

6/17/09